WHO I WAS! Section 1

My father is a tall coolie man and of average body weight, My mother is of mestizo descent. From about the age of five i was taken to Salem, Oregon were i used to live for some couple of months, i am not a born American but love the American's life style. I was attending St. Paul's Anglican school and from the age of five, yah i had to do back a year in infant 1 cause of too much traveling. from about the age of six i realized that school was important and i didn't even had to study and was still number 1 in the class. was usually coming in first in all my classes until standard two hen i fell down way to second place, i felt bad about my self cause i always wanted to be the best and was proud of my past achievements so went back up to first place all the way to standard six. i got the highest in P.S.E within the school and ended up being the valedictorian for graduation. my parents were all proud of me as i was for my self! When i was about the age of nine i was afraid of chucky a evil little doll that kills people, i could see any of his movies cause i wouldn't be able to sleep alone.My happiest moment was when i was about the age of five i was loved by every one, given every thing i wanted and needed. My saddest moment was around the age of nine when my father left, i used to like being with him every were he went i was there with him that's why i used to travel that much.The scariest moment of my life was when i almost drown, i went to the beach for a swim with some of my cousins they were swimming towards dept and i wanted to follow and couldn't swim one of my cousins was with me but he neither couldn't swim i was drowning him and he was drowning me until we finally arrived at shore. My most embarrassing moment was when i copied a school work cause i forgot to do it and it was to be collected and graded sadly the teacher found out and posted the paper in front of the class board for every one to see. My life changing moment was when i first entered high school i changed from being quiet and dedicated to less quiet and more dedicated since i wanted to accomplish my goals i discovered some physical changes and became more mature dealing with issues more seriously that was the time i got my first kiss. My mother was my rock my shoulder she was there and is still here with me she is the one who influenced me to succeed in life to get an education and become some one important in life, she advised me to always do my best in what ever i do! My role model is my father i had always wanted to accomplish many thing he had accomplish thats the main reason i came to c.c.c cause he graduated from that institution as well.

Questions for precious

Questions for the movie Precious

1. What were the factors that contributed to Precious having low self-esteem? Mental abuse, Physical Abuse, Sexual Abuse

2. What signs of low self-esteem did Precious display?that she dough ted her self she always imagined her self as a different person one that was better than her, her mother also made her feel down telling her that it didn't made sense for her to go to school since she can't read nor write

3.What defense mechanisms did Precious use to avoid dealing with pain? Give examples.

she imagined herself as a better person, the fashion girl!

4. What neurotic needs did Precious over-use or display? Give examples.neurotic need for affection and approval, designed to be liked, she was sensitive to rejection, she used to imagined herself with some guys admiring her eg. the guy on the cycle.

5. What helped Precious increase her self-esteem?the teacher that thought precious to read and write helped her to increases her self esteem.

6.What signs of higher/increasing self-esteem did Precious display?She went back to school to learn to read and write cause here mother always told her negative things.

7. What did you learn from the movie?violence can start every way even in places were we don't expect it to happen, home!

8. Would you recommend the movie to others? Why or why not? definitely because the move has lots of meaning it shows not only the factors that made precious have a low self esteem but also cause many Belizeans may be facing these same problems and we never know it cause many don't show it .

Journal #2 Personality test

Personality test

The "Big Five" factors of personality are five broad domains or dimensions of personality which have been scientifically discovered to define human personality. First documented by J M Dig man in 1990 in his five factor model of personality and later at the highest level of organization (Goldberg, 1993). The big five personality quiz showed moderately high on extra version my score indicated that I have more extraverted traits than introverted traits. Extraverts are typically very sociable, expressive, and dominant. My score on agreeableness was moderately high as well. We who are high on agreeableness are often described as warm, friendly, kind, polite and helpful. The conscientiousness quiz was high, dimensions of this personality encompasses qualities such as planning, perseverance, responsibility, and cautiousness. My score for Emotionality was average often described as calm, poised and composed. My score on Intellect/openness was moderately high we are often described as imaginative, intellectual, perceptive and witty.
We all have one, a personality, that is. There’s no way around it, and very often the way we would describe that personality is very different than the way other friends, family members, or associates would describe it. My results for this test in Melancholy showed a strength:5 weakness:5 25%, Phlegmatic strength:4 weakness:3 18%, Sanguine strength:4 weakness:1 13%, Choleric strength:7 weakness:11 45%.
The Riso-Hudson Enneagram Type Indicator (RHETI) is a scientifically validated forced-choice personality test with 144 paired statements. It provides a much higher level of accuracy than the free sample test and much more detailed personality profiles. The test took about 40 minutes to be completed. My top tree scores were type 2, 3, and 8 which are: type two, The helper the caring interpersonal type. Twos are empathetic, sincere and warm hearted. We are the friendly, generous, and self-sacrificing, but can also be the sentimental ones. Type tree, The Achiever. The adaptable, success-oriented type. We are the self-assured, attractive, and charming. We can also be status-conscious and highly driven for advancement. Type eight, The challenger. The powerful, aggressive type. We eights are self-confident, strong, and assertive. We use our strength to improve others' lives, becoming heroic, magnanimous, and inspiring.

These test has actually made me realize who I really am and what I can do not to only help my self but others. I felt that my life was turned upside down not knowing who I was I just lived my life the way it came. I had always taught that some thing was being missed out of my life and now with the results of these test ive found out that I am risk taking, expressive I' m happy for the best part I will use these talents at their best and for my best!

It's all about me! Journal

Sometimes i am quiet and easygoing. People often think that i am passive because i tend to avoid trouble. I'm not the type that pushes my way on others. i push down memories from the past Because they are too painful to deal with, i can't believe that my girlfriend after so much love and sacrifice i placed into our relation ended up changing her mind about our relationship. She claims that her parents say that I'm a nice guy and every thing but my age compared to hers is way too distanced, she is fourteen and I'm eighteen. Christmas in 2009 was at its best i was at her house having a good time talking to her expressing my feelings for her and the most special thing happened between us our first kiss.
Maybe i can't face the truth, i deny the truth we can't be together because of age difference she is some what immature to deal with a relationship but I'm afraid of her falling in loved with some one else, distance as well has separated us. I have tried to push down on these memories because they don't let me live a normal life!I over use these mechanisms because in every relationship that i'm involved in this keeps happening to me. Their is only one solution to my problems don't ever fall in loved again because in every one i end up getting hurt!
Perfection and unassailability, sometimes my life gives me a twist. At times i want to be admired based on my own self view of perfection. In the past all i did was to be admired for who i was, i used to dress and act like a top shatta with earing and saggy clothes but i noticed that some girls do like it but others and their parents think that those guys that dress like that are bad boys and that affects a persons reputation big time. I used to dress like that because i used to hang around with guys that were trained to dress like that from the time they were born, i felt that if i didn't look like them i would have been kicked out of the group. I hid all my imperfections so as not to fail the group, such as the way i talked had to be change or else they would have called you a sissy and be kicked out. every thing was to just be "Bling, Bling" like those real ghetto guys.Now i've changed big time that need for perfection was not for me i have too many imperfections and its time the world knows about them so i can live a peaceful life, a life filled with love and happiness a life that god wants us all to live, happy! hiding imperfections to be perfect was not good cause the world might know of them when you don't want it to know and consequences will follow.
A need for personal achievement is what i've i had always been working on from the time i was in primary school. In the past i've burnt the midnight candle staying up late at night to complete assignments i was always competing in my class to get first place. In primary school i was awarded first place from infant two to standard two where i fell to second place and then back to first in standard three up to standard six. I was the valedictorian in the class, when i got a low grade on a test i always used to push my self to achieve higher grades. i guess i over used that need for personal achievement because when i entered high school i started to suffer from strong head ache and fever that made me crazy at times. My grades fell but thanks to God I still keep moving forward. Now all i do is to just focus in class and try to do assignments because i don't want to under go that head ache and fever again in my life, studying too much made me sick so i had to limit my self to studying to remain healthy. My long term goal of graduating is now my shortest goal since i am almost there i know that father God will guide and protect me to reach all my objectives!